service.

Ok. So. I just found out tonight that I am playing guitar for CareGroup tomorrow. 

And at first I was really, not upset, but really not wanting to do it. But. I hear people talk all of the time how they love to serve, or want to serve. Myself being included in those people. But now when I have the chance to serve God with my talent, that He gave in the first place to use for His glory, I shy away from it. What a hypocrite I am! But thank God He showed me this before my attitude got the better of me.

 I'm still having a hard time actually wanting to play. But. God will work His magic in my heart. He always does. I just hope He puts more focus on my nerves. =P 

But yeah, I haven't played in front of people.. other than close friends and family since.........2006? Yeah, along time. 

But its not really that I haven't played in forever. Its that, I'm going to be the only music in the worship. And if you know me you know how seriously I take worship, how much I love it. I just want God's glory to shine. And even though I feel like He can't possible shine through me, He knows He can. 

Just please pray. I guess I'm just nervous that I'll mess everything up. Because I'm good at that.

so yeah. I need to go practice some more. =P

oh yeah, this is my 145 post! *hears distance cheering*  =P

also. Brandon seems to be in a bad mood today. =( That makes my day not so great. but ohwell. It's a day that the Lord has made. Rejoice and be Glad in it.